Thursday, November 5, 2009

Ugh.

So my homeschooled son wants to go back to school. To try it out for a year. And he's convinced he wants to start NOW.

I'm so unhappy about it, I can't even begin to tell you. But, I've always said that if he wanted to try it, he could, so we'll be registering ASAP. Even though Momma DOESN'T THINK IT'S A GOOD IDEA.*

Our life has changed so much this year. I'm having a hard time keeping the faith that it will all work itself out. And I'm having a hard time not being petty and sending out "Congratulations! You've WON!" cards to everyone out there who said homeschooling wouldn't work. (Thanks for your support, everyone!) But those are more my issues then BW's, so I'm trying to let it go and be supportive of his new desire.

I kind of feel like there's not much I can do at this point. I don't want him to be resentful about never really getting to try school if it's something he thinks he'd like to do. I'm working full time, so I'm really not getting a lot of time to spend with him, and MM and him have begun clashing so much it's really not working out with MM trying to be the primary stay at home person.

And since homeschooling has always been my and BW's thing, and he's no longer on board, what can I do?

Ugh.

I feel like he's been told by so many people that he needs to be in a "real school" that he's been brainwashed. Am I bad person for hoping it goes horribly and we can get back to our regularly scheduled programming soon?**

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*And is making it pretty damn clear, in case there's any doubt.

**Kidding, kidding. Of course I don't hope it goes horribly. I don't want him to have a horrible experience. I just want him to get a better education then the crappy ones his father and I had. And if he can get that in public school, well, great. Right?

6 comments:

Zayna said...

I always said, that if Daughter had been happy in school I never would have pulled her out.

3 years later I stand by that and though I would worry if she ever expressed an interest in going back to school I would most definitely let her try it out.

Think of your time homeschooling as equipping Andrew with the skills to question what he's being taught.

And if nothing else, you are supporting him in making a decision about his own education.

Just as you'll support him whether it works out or not. Right?

lisafer said...

You're right. Absolutely right. I'm just having a hard time dealing with yet ANOTHER big change. ;)

SuziQ's Daughter said...

Lisa,
I just caught myself up on all of your posts. So much has been going on with you. Im sorry its all taking its toll on you but keep the faith that things will work out in the end as they are supposed to. Take care of yourself!

lisafer said...

Thanks, Michelle! It feels like it's been crazy around here for the last two years! :)

Mara Winders said...

It was working just fine when it was you and him together. Don't think for a minute that all of those nay-sayers are correct about school being best for him. YOU were best for him. If it were still you home, I have no doubt that YOU would be engaging him enough to keep him from being interested in school. And nothing against MM! He is better at a lot of things with kids than I am. But heck, let's be honest, it takes patience. And I didn't learn that patience easily or quickly. Neither did you. We are both STILL working on homeschooling patience. MM is WAY behind us.

I hope it works out. I hope BW is doing this for the right reasons. It could be the best solution to the current situation.

As far as the brainwashing goes, I think it's unfair. But then again, I sometimes wonder if I've done my own brainwashing with mine to keep them from wanting school.

lisafer said...

Thanks, Mara! I think you're right. I'm at least willing to give it a chance. And I'm looking at it from a better place today - if it works out, it gives me more time to focus on school. :)